The Vow

Going to go a little off topic today, I watched The Vow while running on the treadmill the other day :) It was a very sad movie. I thought it was going to be a little bit sad but I thought for sure she would just wake up and remember everything and they would fall back deeply in love. It did not end up like that! It was sad but Channing Tatum is oh so sexy in that movie! So basically I had one point in the movie that sort of REALLY touched me. It was when her mother said this" "I didn't leave your dad for one thing he did wrong, but I stayed with him for all the things he did right" I know most will not agree and that is okay! Basically I have gone my whole life thinking "once a cheater always a cheater" but as I age I become much MUCH wiser and after being married for almost 12 years and been with my husband for over 13 years now and in a military environment I have seen and been through my fair share of things. I know that some people stay, relationships are not perfect and they take so much work. If you have had a fairy tale life GREAT! I am so happy that there are some people who go their whole lives with no hiccups, but we are not one of those couples. I struggle daily with the things I have been through but I do have to say the good out weigh the bad and I am GRATEFUL for where we are today. I have finally just come to the point where I move forward everyday and I enjoy the things each day has to bring. Anywho the movie just really made me think and reflect on things we have been through and where do I want to be in the years to come as my children become teens and then adults.

Great Week!

I weighed in Thursday but life has been really busy so I am reporting in today! I really beefed up my exercise and added in 8 lbs weights which together makes 16 and its quite a work out! I have also been adding more floor exercises in so I do that before I hop on the treadmill. I lost 4 lbs last week! That is pretty amazing! Its more than I am supposed to lose but I really did not do much other than adding in the bigger weights, I still ate normally, in fact I cheated a few times and had little fun size candy bars 6 to be exact :) but that was over the week that was not all in one day. So now I have lost 53lbs and I have 30 even to lose! Well to get to my first goal weight! Its basically a weight I will be happy with as long as I am able to continue to tone up. My stomach still looks so flabby to me! I am pretty sure I have my work cut out for me over the year! It makes my days go faster though, I always have something to do, something to look forward to, and something to feel good about myself for doing! I love that I fit in regular people clothing, I don't have to look at something and think how cute it is and be ashamed that my fat ass can't fit in it! I am still fat don't get me wrong! 30lbs is still a bit of weight to lose but I look WAY better now than I did 53 lbs ago! I will always be a little bit fat, I am like Bridget Jones, I could never be skinny, I just love food and I don't want to cut it out of my life, but I can have a healthy BMI and be healthy and still eat things I love in moderation. I wanna keep the booty and my boobs I just don't want ALL this extra fat! It's hard not to be ashamed when I look at myself.

Before and After

I have a picture I found of myself when I needed to lose 83lbs it is NOT pretty. Before I post it up I just wanted to put my weigh in on here which was another 2lbs this week! 34lbs left to lose! I really wanted to say that you must find a happy balance when losing weight, if you eat to little you will find it very difficult to lose the weight because your body will hoard everything you eat, I learned a very hard lesson when I continued eating 1200 calories and burning probably 300-400 a day my body HATED me and I was so confused why I wasn't losing the weight! I bumped it up to 1500-1600 and such a BIG difference. I have yet to hit a plateau, please remember the more you lose each week the easier it is to gain it back if you slip up! I will lose 2lbs and say I slip and eat one to many rice crispy treats (I did this last week) well the next day I eat good and exercise and still lose 2lbs the next week, If I lost more than 3lbs I can guarantee I would gain some of that weight back. Please allow yourself semi healthy treats, and drink water! I have been putting lemon in all my drinks this week even when I work out and I feel better and its almost been a natural laxative. TMI I know but my thyroid SUCKS! I have some weeks where it will be a week and I still can't go and this REALLY hinders the weight loss! Which is why my Dr is following me closely! I need to make sure my numbers do not get off or it can be chaos! Anywho without further ado my before and after pictures! sorry the new picture is blurry my camera was having issues!