Better Late than Never

I know it has been a while since I was on here I promise I have not been eating junk and given up on my lifestyle change. I have been busy dealing with my son who is Autistic and trying to get him services in school.   I am back and I am 1 pound away from 60 lbs of weight loss!! WOO HOO! My thyroid was off so we had some medicine adjustment and lets just say my weight has sort of flip flopped I was losing 4 lbs a week for 2 weeks and then gained 2 lbs one week and lost  3 lbs last week! So tomorrow is my weigh in since my medicine was changed again last week I am not real hopeful for big things but just that 1 pound to bring me to my 60 would be awesome! I am going to add some of my daily meals on here and I am going to try to come back more frequently and post recipes and hopefully get some pictures up here because I am a huge foodie and I love taking pics of my healthy recipe's! Hopefully I can get some more followers I am not sure how to get my blog out there! Very new to this blog thing!

Mon-Fri Breakfast is 1 cup of coffee (about 8 oz) 1 tablespoon of vanilla all natural coffee creamer and one Stella Doro S cookie
Sat-Sun is usually a Naked smoothie 8 oz sometimes I will do oatmeal I like the Irish Maple and brown sugar stuff its good and all natural or sometimes I go to Mc Donalds and get the Fruit and Maple its a little high in sugar but the calories are good and I love all the fruit and fiber.

Lunch varies: I do 2 eggs 1 1/4 cup frozen shredded potatoes and a ton of bell peppers this is a little over 300 calories for me but so filling and yummy!
 I also do cereal sometimes with some fruit or Half of a pita stuff full of tuna 1 tablespoon low fat olive oil mayo and a TON of pickles! Then I eat carrots or celery or whatever fresh veggies I have

Dinner is always just a smaller portion of what I feed my family, I give them meat in their pasta sauce I will not have meat and add a little extra garlic and parm cheese I have one piece of bread which is 60 calories because it is a baguette , or I make chili and I get myself 2% cheddar cheese for the top, I put more beans than meat in it and I make my own cornbread and use 1/2% milk and omit things that may be super fattening.

This is just some samples I will come back and give some more recipes I have snacks but they are usually fresh fruit or veggies or a piece of low cal string cheese nuts are great too! Pistachios are wonderful and GREAT for you!

The Vow

Going to go a little off topic today, I watched The Vow while running on the treadmill the other day :) It was a very sad movie. I thought it was going to be a little bit sad but I thought for sure she would just wake up and remember everything and they would fall back deeply in love. It did not end up like that! It was sad but Channing Tatum is oh so sexy in that movie! So basically I had one point in the movie that sort of REALLY touched me. It was when her mother said this" "I didn't leave your dad for one thing he did wrong, but I stayed with him for all the things he did right" I know most will not agree and that is okay! Basically I have gone my whole life thinking "once a cheater always a cheater" but as I age I become much MUCH wiser and after being married for almost 12 years and been with my husband for over 13 years now and in a military environment I have seen and been through my fair share of things. I know that some people stay, relationships are not perfect and they take so much work. If you have had a fairy tale life GREAT! I am so happy that there are some people who go their whole lives with no hiccups, but we are not one of those couples. I struggle daily with the things I have been through but I do have to say the good out weigh the bad and I am GRATEFUL for where we are today. I have finally just come to the point where I move forward everyday and I enjoy the things each day has to bring. Anywho the movie just really made me think and reflect on things we have been through and where do I want to be in the years to come as my children become teens and then adults.

Great Week!

I weighed in Thursday but life has been really busy so I am reporting in today! I really beefed up my exercise and added in 8 lbs weights which together makes 16 and its quite a work out! I have also been adding more floor exercises in so I do that before I hop on the treadmill. I lost 4 lbs last week! That is pretty amazing! Its more than I am supposed to lose but I really did not do much other than adding in the bigger weights, I still ate normally, in fact I cheated a few times and had little fun size candy bars 6 to be exact :) but that was over the week that was not all in one day. So now I have lost 53lbs and I have 30 even to lose! Well to get to my first goal weight! Its basically a weight I will be happy with as long as I am able to continue to tone up. My stomach still looks so flabby to me! I am pretty sure I have my work cut out for me over the year! It makes my days go faster though, I always have something to do, something to look forward to, and something to feel good about myself for doing! I love that I fit in regular people clothing, I don't have to look at something and think how cute it is and be ashamed that my fat ass can't fit in it! I am still fat don't get me wrong! 30lbs is still a bit of weight to lose but I look WAY better now than I did 53 lbs ago! I will always be a little bit fat, I am like Bridget Jones, I could never be skinny, I just love food and I don't want to cut it out of my life, but I can have a healthy BMI and be healthy and still eat things I love in moderation. I wanna keep the booty and my boobs I just don't want ALL this extra fat! It's hard not to be ashamed when I look at myself.

Before and After

I have a picture I found of myself when I needed to lose 83lbs it is NOT pretty. Before I post it up I just wanted to put my weigh in on here which was another 2lbs this week! 34lbs left to lose! I really wanted to say that you must find a happy balance when losing weight, if you eat to little you will find it very difficult to lose the weight because your body will hoard everything you eat, I learned a very hard lesson when I continued eating 1200 calories and burning probably 300-400 a day my body HATED me and I was so confused why I wasn't losing the weight! I bumped it up to 1500-1600 and such a BIG difference. I have yet to hit a plateau, please remember the more you lose each week the easier it is to gain it back if you slip up! I will lose 2lbs and say I slip and eat one to many rice crispy treats (I did this last week) well the next day I eat good and exercise and still lose 2lbs the next week, If I lost more than 3lbs I can guarantee I would gain some of that weight back. Please allow yourself semi healthy treats, and drink water! I have been putting lemon in all my drinks this week even when I work out and I feel better and its almost been a natural laxative. TMI I know but my thyroid SUCKS! I have some weeks where it will be a week and I still can't go and this REALLY hinders the weight loss! Which is why my Dr is following me closely! I need to make sure my numbers do not get off or it can be chaos! Anywho without further ado my before and after pictures! sorry the new picture is blurry my camera was having issues!

Another Week Down

I didn't post earlier because I was very busy but I did lose 2 more pounds this week. So I have 36lbs to lose. Although I have been looking at my body and thinking I will just make this sort of my Short Term goal, I am thinking I will probably need to lose about 15-20lbs more to get to a real GOAL! So if I lose all that I will pretty much be at 100lbs of weight loss. I have been really hard on myself this week. I HATE hate HATE that I have gotten so fat. I was sitting looking at myself in my XXL sweat pants, and I looked at my husband and said " Its sad that these used to fit" he looked confused and said "don't you mean happy?" I had to explain that yes I am happy that I am losing weight but sad that I was so fat! These pants just hang off me now they used to be like a more fitted fleece yoga pant, its what I live in now days, I look 10x bigger than I am but why would I buy clothes when I am weekly dropping weight? In one month I could lose 12lbs and I can not keep buying clothes. I did recently buy a super cute outfit and its a little snug, well it was a lot snug 2 weeks ago and now its feels just a slight snug and I bet in 1-2 weeks it will fit perfect! I have to have things to treat myself when I hit goals, I am just a few lbs from losing 50! When I hit that I will take pictures and get something non food related! So far things have been great, I am losing weekly and I feel great! I am pretty sure I have added years on to my life.

The Story

Today I weigh in early due to being a girl! Basically when its that special time my body will not show the weight loss.. It hoards my water weight so I weigh in before this happens! 2lbs lost this week! I only have 38lbs to go ! Started out at 83lbs to lose and 15weeks later I am at 38lbs.
  So Why is this girl so fat? Why does she get thin and get fat? ( Go ask Oprah) hee hee Just kidding. Well as a child I had an awful life. My dad did drugs and my mom was just too young to have me and my brother. The things I had to see, the fact that my mother used treats as rewards just really gave me the wrong impression of food. If she was depressed we went to get donuts or cupcakes. I was also on prednisone because my parents were not very cleanly, and I had really bad asthma and so I was on the machine and taking medicine quite a bit. My poor knees could not even take the weight when I hit 8th grade and I was at 200lbs I ended up in knee braces for a while. Anywho you know you get older and get the big picture and I learned how to take care of myself, and get that weight off. Then married into the military and MANY times just ate my problems away! Although right now I am doing great I could relapse after losing it.. I hate that. Food really is an addiction. Especially for people who have just a wide range of issues. Right now I am super strong and I feel like I need to get healthy and I hope that I can keep that up. I need to be healthy for my kids, I need to be a great example for them, no treats like cupcakes we have treats like homemade fruit roll ups, or I hand make things and can omit a lot of sugar and crap. Treats are not given for good behavior, treats are just a treat when we want a little treat! Basically I have to trick my brain and get it out of that old way of thinking. Now it has gotten a bit sick, I almost hate myself for eating anything. When I eat something I think about how many calories is this, should I be eating right now, I usually just eat half or less than half of everything. I realize this could be a problem too, but I am eating, I do hit my calorie goals and lets face it I have a ton of weight to lose. I am tired of being fat. I am still fat when I look in the mirror. I loathe the fat stomach that I see, and nothing looks good on me. There will always be a life long battle of this thinking. When I Was fat I never looked in the mirror and I NEVER took pictures of myself. Now I can look at my face and I see changes its just not how I want to look.

Another Day!

After my 3lbs weight loss last week my weekend was a little on the BAD side! Although I got some good exercise in I did partake in some not so good food! Like Yates Cider mill Donuts and cider! I only had one donut and about 4oz of the cider but I had a few other pit falls like Wine (I love a good red wine) and french fries! I thought I could just eat 6 fries and that was it but they were homemade they were sooo good! So Bad weekend but Monday I started fresh and new and that's how the cookie crumbles! If I ate good all the time this would just not work. This does account for my wide range of weight loss from 1-3lbs if I am REALLY good I can get a 3lbs weight loss if I am not so good I can expect to lose 1 lbs probably meaning I gained back 2 lbs and then lost 1 lbs later in the week LOL. I have always battled with my weight, 10 years old I was fat and it just sort of escalated from there I was probably about 215lbs in high school when I decided to do something and although I never weighed myself I went from a size 18 to a size 10 so I lost some serious weight I looked awesome and kept it off until I got pregnant, even after pregnancy I dropped a ton of weight and then I must have been like 260lbs when she hit a year old. I had to buy Men's XXL sweatpants... I dropped down to 230 and got pregnant with my son about a year later and then I dropped a TON of weight after I had him and put it all back on until he hit 2 and I got serious. I lost 50lbs and was in a size 14 no not skinny but I looked great! I kept that off for a year and gained it all back, got pregnant again and put on another 33lbs.. So this time around I have 83lbs just to get to that size 14 weight, although this time once I hit my goal I will not just stop! I will continue doing everything I do now except I will knock down my work out to 3x a week instead of 5. That way I hopefully can maintain and maybe lose a few lbs here and there over the months. My goal is probably unlike most, everyone wants to be skinny, lots of people get to that point but I like a little weight on myself, I just want to be healthy. Curvy yet healthy. Eating should be healthy AND tasty!